Happy Birthday to me.

43 years ago I was born. Yesterday was my birthday and it was great. My kids called to wish me a happy birthday, my wife pampered my most of the day and we even had lunch with my parents. TC says she bought me a new camper for my B-Day, but we both know that we both equally enjoy camping. Time seems to be ticking along very quickly here lately but, it sure is fun to see what happens next. Sure there are things that if I had my druthers(my word) I would probably change a few things but it is what it is. I am blessed to have a family who loves me and a God who is for me. TC and I did all of our chores yesterday and enjoyed a nice meal and conversation last night. My wife is very kind to me and that is something to be extremely thankful for! Today is the day for our one night retreat and it is right on time. This should be a really good time as it seems to be way overdue.

I was looking back to my very first blog, posted January 27th, almost one year ago. Since then I have posted 186 posts. I have met some very interesting people and have enjoyed reading many different blogs from over the country and even the world. I took the time and really enjoyed reading my past blogs and I think this is more of a journal than anything else. I also think that there are tons of people who do not believe that anyone would fin interest in what they may write or think, but that is not necessarily the case. Sometimes I just hit the next blog feature or do a search on common interest or profiles. That is how I have met several people, For instance, a fellow blogger in California or a blogger from Iraq in the Army. There are tons of examples that someone might write about or perhaps share an experience that may be the thing that lifts a spirit or bring a smile. I think that it's one of the great things about blogger. I guess mine could be an “online journal”. That would probably describe it the best. I pray whoever reads this will have a great and prosperous New Year.

Email from American Family association

Thought I would post this: www.afa.net

This is something I have looked at for a while. All info comes from their website and an email post.
Bill O'Reilly, host of "The O'Reilly Factor" on the Fox News Channel, calls George Soros public enemy number 1
Bill O’Reilly says George Soros and Progressive Insurance Chairman Peter Lewis are leading enemies of traditional values
Dear Wade,
FREE Newsletter from The Voice of the Martyrs I just finished reading Bill O'Reilly's book Culture Warrior. I recommend you read this book by the host of "The O'Reilly Factor." It will help open your eyes to what AFA has been saying for years.
What is most interesting about Mr. O'Reilly's book is what he says about billionaires George Soros, an investment banker, and Peter Lewis, chairman of Progressive Insurance: "For traditional-minded Americans, George Soros is public enemy number one. Without his unlimited cash (along with that of Peter Lewis), the S-P [social progressive] movement could not attack so readily and so effectively---and with such venom."
Peter Lewis owns $1,176,130,144 worth of Progressive stock. That is over one billion dollars worth of Progressive stock!
Read more of Mr. O'Reilly's information concerning Soros and Lewis.
Some of you will remember Lewis donated $8.5 million to the ACLU about a year ago.
While Progressive's Web site lists Lewis as chairman, the company says he is no longer active. But he still gets his money from Progressive to attack social conservatives.
If you are a Progressive Insurance agent or a policy holder, do you really want to help those seeking to reshape America to their image?

Random Early Thoughts

I woke early this morning and I have enjoyed the rare quietness of living on HWY 150. I decided to pay bills and all of that stuff and get it out of the way. I have such a peace this morning I can hardly contain it. I feel so blessed, so awesome being one of God’s Children. My Father loves me but you know what, He loves me even when I don’t feel that He does. My Saturday will be full of chores and some running around. I am so excited about this Sunday. TC and I are going with her sister and husband to a retreat near South Mountain and I am so much looking forward to it. You would just have to see us four together to know. We have been around each other as a foursome for over 25 years. They were our first double date and you should see the prom pics. Randy had a white tux and I had a powder blue one. Yes, I said powder blue. The girls were reversed. Can you imagine? I may post a pic on that later if I can find it. Awesome!

We are the proud owners of an RV...Again

Just a brief note…..TC and I went this morning and looked at a 1990 Chevrolet Fleetwood RV this morning. I had prayed that a wonderful sign and a peace would surround us if we were meant to purchase this one. Through a series of circumstances, we knew this was the one. The seller was a believer, there were things wrong with the RV that I could repair or have repaired and that made the purchase price affordable for us. So, we went to the bank, withdrawed the funds, added it to our insurance and went and bought the tag. We had to wait for the insurance fax and then over an hour at the DMV but we did it. We brought it home and we have already took all the curtains and stuff out of it and took them to the laundry mat and they are nice an clean. We are gong to work on it all day tomorrow, but we will have to take it somewhere to have the roof repaired. This is something that we love and so we are very excited about it. I will post some pics later and also during the progress. I wanted a project and boy do I have it. I thank God for this blessing.

Well TC took the test so now we will wait and see sometime in early January. Later Tuesday TC and I tore it up at Crackle Barrel, and then spent some time with her sister and then just hung out the rest of the day around the house. It’s funny because when I was just riding around waiting on TC to take her test, I rode by the John Boy and Billy Radio Program offices just off Billy Graham freeway. Driving through the parking lot I saw Raeford getting out of his car and entering the building. I gave him a sturdy salute and he returned it promptly.

We tried to find something in Gatlinburg for this weekend but it was too late. We had decided to just forget about it and then through a newsletter I receive I found something really close by. It’s called Mountain Retreat Ministries. It is headed by Rev. David Webb and his wife. It is a really nice cabin and worth looking into. We are staying there on Sunday Night along with Tic’s sister and husband Debbie and Randy. This should be a lot of fun because we are so close and get along so well.

On Wednesday we had our Christmas/New Year dinner at the warehouse where I work. All the wives came in and we cooked steaks. A lady that works there really fixed it up nice. Denise is very creative and everything was really nice. Mike Long cook the steaks, outstanding! It was a good day. On Friday TC and I are gong to look at an RV. We think it is a good deal so we are excited. I pray that God’s Will shall overcome any desires we have. We would love to have a RV again and use it in ministry. There are so many uses. In the past when we had one, we used it for youth functions, college ministries, and even a place to serve pizza at a Crusade. We could also travel and have a place tom stay as we visited other churches on the weekend. Well not much more happening until after the first of the year. If I blog anymore it will be just some random stuff.

TO Anyone who Reads: God Bless and Happy New Year!!!!! Jesus Reigns

Final Answer on Chaplains Assistant

I have been praying and praying about this matter of joining the Army Reserve as a Chaplains Assistant. It sorta pains me this morning that I received my answer. It was one of those things that just happened. I had asked God to tell me and I believe that He did. This morning I woke by just knowing. I want God’s will for my life and this is one those times that this is really not the answer I was looking for. I served my country back in the 80’s at Fort Drum in the 10th Mountain Division. Being prior service it would have been easier for me, but I sought the answer and the answer came. The answer is that as far as any military career that I thought I might still be able to have; IT IS OVER. Even while I was writing this my fire pager went off and that reminded me of one of the things I am suppose to do. Other than that I am not going to speculate at this time. I believe the first of the year will bring some more answers as far as that goes. My heart is kind of sad because I did want to join my fellow countrymen in serving and protecting my freedom. My heart is happy because I asked and I received. That is the final thought on that except for how I can still serve in a non-capacity form.

Our kids have all returned back to their own lives now. Christie and David to Brevard and Chad to Denver, NC. TC and I are going to Charlotte this morning for her to attempt her 3rd testing of the Praxis Test. I know that she is very nervous as she must pass it this time to continue in her cohort class beginning again in January. I pray that God will assist her nerves and give her freedom of thinking.

I must return to work on Wednesday and Thursday and then I am of again until the first of the year. We are trying to go somewhere this weekend although; we may have waited to late to find anything, but either way.

More Thoughts on Chaplains Assistant

Collar Insignia: Stylized hands enclosing a chapel, door open, on a one inch disk of gold color metal.
Authorized in 1984 for wear by enlisted personnel assigned as Chaplain Assistants. The hands represent religious support provided to the chapel and to religious programs, while the chapel's door symbolizes a welcome to all worshipers.

I continue to research the position of Chaplains Assistant. I guess while I am waiting for a final answer from God if this might be a possibility for me it is good for me to research and prepare. There are several circumstances that could prevent me from doing this so, I do not and will not push this through. I truly have a desire to wait on God. This I know, whatever God’s will is for me it will co-exist with his will for TC. We are not separate but we are one! Just wanted to reassure myself that I am waiting on God.

That being said I am still excited at the possibility. The adventure itself is enough for me to be excited about, but also the chance to work in this field. The ministry and preparations it world take is right up my alley. As a 56(M) CA, I would be part of the UMT( Unit Ministry Team). You can get all the details here. I would anticipate many ministry opportunities. I also have some chances to possible speak to some CA in the near future. One thing about it, I will not have made this decision without doing my homework.

Return With Honor

I just finished reading “Return with Honor” written by Jeff Coplon about American F-16 Jet pilot Captain Scott Ogrady who was shot down over Bosnia in 1995. The book was great as I could hardly put it down. I finished the book being only 206 pages in just a few days. I recommend this book highly as it shows the true American pride and force of its military, but most of all it shows how one man realizes that this poser comes from God alone. Captain O’Grady toward the end of the book highlights three things he learned while evading his captures for six days and then being rescued by a group of Marines.
1. His Faith in God ,the source of all goodness
2. His love for family and friends
3. Good health-

He said that beyond that all things were negotiable. Of course there have been plenty of naysayers. Those who say that the US planted all of this. I say Bull hockey. This man is a true hero although he does not see himself as that way. He now is retired and speaks at some great events. After reading this book, my patriotism was engaged and once again I was a proud American!

Merry Christmas- Happy Birthday Jesus

It's Christmas morning and its raining, oh great. My gum area is felling a little better now and I am so thankful. I put a pic of a stocking because that is about all we have left. We usually give the kids money for Christmas but we do still do stockings. Some stuff will be good in there and some will be stupid. You just never know. TC and i get a kick out of doing this as it makes Christmas morning s little more fun. Last night we went to my Mom's house and today we will go to Tc's sister house for her side of the family. Even though its raining it is still a beautiful day. Jesus, I just wanted to thank you for being in the cradle but also for going to the cross. Because of you shed blood I have eternal life. I love you Jesus!

A long and thoughtful post

I am writing this post for many reasons. First, I need to express this matter in some form and I think it best here. I have contemplated the idea of returning to the military for some time now. AT my age I thought it was over but certain changes in the? Army’s recruiting has perhaps made that possible again. So, why you may ask? Because I cannot shake it. I feel such a draw to be with my brothers in this changing world we are living in. Now grant it I am talking about the reserves, but none the less there are certain possibilities that might send me “over there”. My wife as you might imagine is completely against the idea and I understand that, but something happened that the other day that has weighed heavy on my mind and heart. I had oral surgery so I went under the radar. Put to sleep. When I was out of it, TC told me that I kept talking about it. I wanted to be at Fort Jackson where Basic Training is held and I want to help the troops. I want to be a troop again, but how? There are some problems. First, I am over weight. I will need to lose about 2or 3 % body fat in order to re-enter. After the episode of the oral surgery my wife said this,” I don’t want to talk about it but if you want to do, then just do it. That gives me permission to at least considerate it more seriously. Do I have what it takes to do it? Do I have the will? Do I have the motivation? We will see! The idea of being a Chaplains Assistant really moves me. To minister to Americas finest men and women does a lot for me. I think I would be an outstanding C.A. mainly because people want people who are real to minister to their needs, not someone who stand afar off. This has always been my best quality, being real to the people. A Chaplains Assistant will have opportunities to minister but he must understand that he is the assistant and not the Chaplin. Paperwork, schedules and such will fill his days, but I also think there will be numerous chances for ministry. The C.A. also provides administrative support and of course he is armed. One of his jobs would be to protect the Chaplin, because by law the Chaplin is unarmed and is not allowed to carry a weapon. The last time I checked I would quite possibly be stationed at Fort Jackson and that is also where I would receive my training. Because I am prior military, I would only have to endure a 4 week refresher course and a time to get me back in shape. After that I would resume the CA specific training. Of course I am talking about a part time reservist position. which means one weekend a month and a two week training time each year. This is of course without any deployment, which these days are certainly more likely.

The second reason I am writing this post is to ask for prayer. My heart wants to be in uniform again and I certainly have a desire to help the troops, but my brain says, “You better think about that again”. So I will push toward the weight loss and getting into some kind of better shape while I wait further instructions on this decision.

Random Friday Post

So it’s Friday morning and I am waiting on 10:15. That’s what time I see the oral surgeon. I am not supposed to have anything this morning, but I at least have to have my black coffee. I will be glad when this tooth is gone gone gone!!! Last night TC and I went to the “receiving of friends” for my Aunt Louise, my Mom’s sister. She passed away I believe on Tuesday night. Louise was well know and well liked around the Oak Grove area of Kings Mountain. I actually saw Uncle Fred for the first time in a while. He looked very old. They had four sons and one daughter, Cindy. The sons Mike, Ronnie, Terry and Keith. Terry was actually married to Patti Loveless for some time. When they were young they played in a rock and roll band. Eventually they divorced, but I thought it was so kind that Patti, a country music star, called Fred to pay her respects. Patti, they say, was really close to Louise and loves her very much. It was good to see some family that I had not seen in years. It is always sad to see them under those circumstances.

So TC and I will have to finish up our Christmas shopping perhaps tonight or Saturday. On Sunday I will be speaking at Hezibah that morning, After picking Chad up, we will have church at Wellspring at 4:00 and then on to Mom’s house by 5:30. All kids will spend the night and will be here for Christmas morning. On Christmas day TC’s family is gathering at her sister Bonnie’s house. There will be tons of stuff going on and I look forward to it greatly. I don’t go back to work until Wednesday and then I’m off again until after the New Years.

I must make a decision on my weekend job again. Will I do it or not? Not sure. Personally that is what going on. My next few posts will be more of a topical subject.

Random

Well the dentist would not pull my tooth because the root had wrapped around and up into my sinus area, which she said it would leave a hole and that, would not be good. So, I have an appointment for Friday at an oral surgeon. At least I will be asleep so I will not fill a thing. Christmas is getting closer so I will share my families plans later. TC an I are planning to spend the New Years weekend in Gatlinburg Tenn. One more day of trucking. I think I have to go to Asheville again on Thursday and then I will off until next Wednesday. Oh yea!!!

Thoughts from a Cowboy Prospective

Roy Rogers’ Prayer
Lord, I reckon I'm not much just by myself,I fail to do a lot of things I ought to do.But Lord, when trails are steep and passes high,Help me ride it straight the whole way through.
And when in the falling dusk I get that final call,I do not care how many flowers they send,Above all else, the happiest trail would beFor YOU to say to me, "Let's ride, My Friend"AMEN


The Code of the American Cowboy(As read at John Wayne’s eulogy by his son Patrick Wayne)
1. A cowboy does not judge color of skin, but by character within.

2. A cowboy always respects a lady and tips his hat to all that pass him by

3. A cowboy stands strong for what the American frontier is all about: Freedom, Truth, Justice and the American way.

4. A cowboy will not be wronged, nor wrongs another. The justice he deems out depends on that.

5. A cowboy is loyal, and hard working and maintains a high ethic.

6. A cowboy loves his country, and will fight for it’s principles and sovereignty.

7. A cowboy respects his animals and the earth they roam upon.

8. A cowboy is faithful to what is entrusted to him.

9. A cowboy is bound by duty, honor, and gratitude for what God has given him, which includes his friends and family.

10. A cowboy maintains a hidden code in his heart, for all to see.



http://www.chrisbrocious.com/


Copied from this website. Very interesting blog

Praising and getting one Pulled

This past Sunday our son, Chad made contact with us. He has been staying at TC’s sister’s house. Of course we knew this but it looks like he may stay there. He has found a job at Harris Teeter. Chad said for three months he looked for a job in Cherryville and in less than a week he has one near Denver, NC. In case your are reading this and you know the story behind the story, Chad was remorseful for what happened and he made amends. Our fellowship was broken and we are now working on that. Thank God and for all of my friends and family that were praying. Our prayer is that Chad will learn something from this episode and grow a little smarter and savvy and also grow closer to the Lord.

This past weekend TC had fun with her sisters in the mountains near Franklin. Debbie and TC came to Christies house Sunday Morning where I was staying ad we went to their cantata. It was so good!!!! Both David and Christie had a part. I cannot tell you how great she did. Her voice was absolutely awesome. I really think she could sing professionally if she wanted. Anyway, that morning I ate at Huddle house about 5:30 and watched the sun come up over the river coming down from the mountain. It was pretty cool.

Well we are getting ready for Christmas. This week is all about getting ready and working. Oh yea, I’m going to the dentist today and get one pulled!

Me and Christie

Tonight Christie and I had daughter and Dad Date night. We went to Sagebrush and had
awesome meal and some great conversation, while David and a friend watched a kung fu movie. Later we went to their church and we talked in the youth room for a long time about us, Chad, and many other topics. Christie really helped me understand some things tonight and for that I am thankful. I am really tired so I will go to bed now in brevard. Good night!

This Weekend AND Lessons from BRAVEHEART

This Weekend Tc and her sisters are spending the weekend up near Franklin NC in a log cabin. I had hoped that she would get a chance to spend some time with her sisters. So, I am a bachelor this weekend so here are my plans: On Friday I got all my To Do List done. After dropping Tc off, I got all the clothes washed and dried folded and put away (oh yea baby) after that I got food from Mac’s Grill across the street and watched (Brave Heart) ** More on that a little later*** Late that night we has a fire call to an electric fire. It’s amazing that people were doing laundry at almost Midnight. Go Figure!
On Saturday I am just chilling and then I’m going up to Christies house and spend the night. I will pick up TC early Sunday morning and we will come back to Christie’s church as watch their cantata as both she and David are in it. Hopefully we will be able to drop by the Boiling Springs Group that afternoon. Not sure about that.

Update on Chad: As we know it he is staying with Bonnie and that is about all we know. I guess he is figuring out his own.

Now, to mention something about Brave heart. Beside the point that is one of my favorite movies, I have watched I don’t know how many times. Last night though I saw something I had never really seen. Picture this, Robert the Bruce, who has a chance to become a hero choose to betray William Wallace, mostly because of the pressure from his father. In a scene that seemed to stick out, Robert, played by Angus Macfadyen, had this dialogue with his father. Directly taken from the script read below:

Robert the Bruce: Lands, titles, men, power... nothing.
Robert's Father: Nothing?
Robert the Bruce: I have nothing. Men fight for me because if they do not, I throw them off my land and I starve their wives and children. Those men who bled the ground red at Falkirk fought for William Wallace. He fights for something that I never had. And I took it from him, when I betrayed him. I saw it in his face on the battlefield and it's tearing me apart.
Robert's Father: All men betray. All lose heart.
Robert the Bruce: I don't want to lose heart. I want to believe as he does.

Prior to him walking out on his father, Robert the Bruce says this, “I will never be on the wrong side again”!!!! WOW- This struck me as an arrow of truth. I desire to have that fervor to be on the right side, period!


Just some Scripture pertaining to this matter

Pro 20:11 Even a child is known by his doings, whether his work [be] pure, and whether [it be] right.
Pro 21:8 The way of man [is] froward and strange: but [as for] the pure, his work [is] right.
Pro 23:16 Yea, my reins shall rejoice, when thy lips speak right things.

Pictures from a Email Chain

These pics were emailed to me in a prayer chain. I did not break it! I wanted to post them here because I need to feel this. My brothers are making a sacrafice everyday and I get pissed off because there are some hammer heads around here that disrespect them. This is to honer those who are serving. God help the other ones.

A Good Friend, A Good Deal

A Friend sent me an email and this was the quote, Psalms 106:3 Blessed are they who maintain justice, who constantly do what is right.

I am trying to do what is right, but I continue to battle the sad/mad factor. Sometimes I think I am big Wieney, but I understand that I am just an emotional person, which at times is OK. TC and I are sticking to our guns with our son and I've established a mental picture of what it would take for things to be right, however I don't think I will share that here.

TC is looking forward to this weekend. All of her sisters; Debbie Sue, Lisa Gaye, JoAnn and Bonnie along with TC are spending the weekend together at a lof cabin in the mountains. TC said she feels bad for me this weekend and she has a point. I don't look forward to spendint the whole weekend by myself, but she needs this and so this will be the only place I even mentioned it. She knows. She deserves a weekend around her sisters and by writing that I know that even more. Good deal!

Still Contemplating

I just had one thought last night and this morning. Thinking of Change, I thought I would like to change my outlook. IN order to do this inside/out changing I think one would have to change their outlook. For instance, my outlook is directly related to my circumstances. I am trying to mentally and spiritually allow my outlook to remain the same or at least more constant not depending upon my circumstances. Dreary and bleak on the outside makes Wade that way on the inside. Normal, perhaps but I think I would do well to change that. That’s only one of the changes I would like to make. Still contemplating!

Staying on the Right Path

This Sunday can be described as hard. I have asked anyone who would read this to say a little prayer for our son, Chad. Yesterday was a turning a point for Chad, a crossroads if you will. Chad made a bad choice. For several months, in fact over the last year or so Chad has had a problem hanging with the wrong crowd, making poor decisions and general we think screwing up his life and make or life harder. After quitting school Chad went to the Job Corps program in Brevard, NC. He made it through but barely. He only stayed 7 months and he could have stayed over a year. There are tons that happened, but I will just say that Chad has become disrespectful to both his Mom and me and that has to stop. I have never tolerated someone disrespecting me but when it is your own flash and blood it really hurts. The last week as been hell, so on Saturday we asked Chad to leave and as of this morning we do know where he is at. We know that he is probably staying with a friend, but I fear he thinks he can just hang out with someone for the weekend, but that is not the case. His grandparents have said if he calls them they will let him stay there if he behaves, but he cannot return to our house until he changes his attitude and gets a job. This is bleak because he no longer has a call and I will be forced to cancel his Insurance seeing how he got a ticket and has a poor attitude. Why should I pay for it? Anyway, the situation to us is very grave and it is hard to do this. I must go and preach this morning so, I began looking at sermons I’ve preached before and cam across exactly what I needed to hear, a sermon entitled: When God Interrupts Your Plans, preached the first time back in 2001. Very quickly God did not ask Mary and Joseph, he told them what He was going to do. Secondly this plan was “not an easy one”. And thirdly, even though things were extremely difficult, God was present, patient and did indeed bless and prosper Mary and Joseph beyond what they eve thought was possible. God’s plan is not always easy right! Can you give me a witness!!! But, it is the only choice we have, seriously. I have gone down the road of disobedience too many times. I need to remain faithful now in my journey more than ever, because without God I could not even think of the next second. God help us stay on the right path.

Finnally Friday:

So, it’s Friday morning and I am preparing to teach another defensive driving class at our corporate headquarters today. I have been silent since Tuesday for several reasons. One, I worked 14 hours on Tuesday, 10 on Wednesday and 12 Thursday. Only 8 today before my butt is dragging. IN addition to being tired, I’ve stepped up to the next level in my exercising so I am a little sore. But, there is another reason for my silence. I have had nothing to say. It had been difficult to even think this week. It’s as though I cannot clearly focus. I guess those times come. The Enemy continues to haunt and attack our family. Just last night a simple discussion turns into aggravation. I was too tired for that so I went to bed. In fact we all did. I guess some times it’s for the best. I saw no resolve. I think sometimes we are not helpful to each other because we cannot see other folks problems and situations for the brightness of our own. We have become selfish and self-absorbed. Lord, help us to see things in a new light with a renewed attitude of victory.

This Sunday we are going to have Sonny and Bobby Huntsinger come and lead us in worship and share what God has in Thailand, along with their ministry in Montana with YWAM. It will be exciting to hear and watch them. This Sunday at wellspring community Church, meeting in the blue room at Christ Covenant Church.

A Dog's Life

We have two of them, Benji and Smudges. Benji adopted us about seven years ago. Smudges is about five. We love our dogs that is for sure. Probably too much sometimes but that goes back to our childhood. I was thinking last night as I was watching Benji, what a life Here is his typical day. After turning over or just grunting when I wake up usually around 4:00 AM he keeps laying there until I leave for work(usually around 6:00 AM) Yes, he does sleep with me although he is down at the foot of the bed. He goes outside and uses the bathroom and then waits until I put food in his bowl. Then he goes back to sleep. Later he wakes up and walks around the house until TC puts him outside for good. He then goes into his house and goes back to sleep. On occasion he might hear something and get up and look and perhaps bark a little bit, then goes back to sleep. He waits until I get home and I let him run a while outside and then he comes in the house and yes you guessed it, goes back to sleep. One thing about Benji is he is constantly looking for love. Anybody at anytime, don’t matter to him. Just rub me he thinks. Oh yea, when its bed time again I hardly ever have to say anything to him, he just get s up and goes to bed when I do. I love my dog! Oh yea, Smudges is the same with TC except she is a lot more high strung.

Looking for a Remedy

Last night I starred at the sky with great anticipation. The puffy clouds were incredible. The full moon, which by the way was at least two day old, was the constant in the background. Such beauty in the darkness was the entire picture.. The shy was so black and empty, yet it was full of life. In contrast to itself it projected light from the moon and the stars, while covering them with the clouds. I could try and contrast this picture with scripture and probably make a good point but I will just let it stand for itself. That is the way Feel, some darkness and uncertainty, but so amazed by the beauty of life. The “Mid life Crisis” I am experiencing will take me from up to down back to up in a matter of minutes. The slightest thing can set it off. I really think it is what made me sick yesterday. Life is so full of beauty and joy, but at times I feel none of that. It is a stage that I am going through so I pray I will get out of it ASAP. The situation also involves my wife, TC. She is also in a slump. She is depressed a lot here lately. I think it has a lot to do with Christmas because both of parents are passed away and she has not even seen any of her family members. Perhaps I can help remedy that.

Larger Family Christmas Party 06

You can see my sister and her husband in the far side.















My Grandpa in the wheelchair and his son Ronnie on the far side. That's Mimi,Ronnies daugher and my 1st cousin beside him.














My Mom and Dad














RtoL My uncle Ronald, my Aunt Judy(Dad's Sister)













Of course that TC(my wife) and Phillip. He is married to my cousin.















My daughter Christie in the red sweater and her husband David. That's my Mom on the left and my sister Cathey on the right.








My Grandpa and Aunt Judy

Saturday: Just a day of Relaxing

Not too much happening today. As it turns out I did not have to work today so that is cool. I will clean my blazer and get a hair cut. Last night the Fire Department Banquet was awesome. The youth at First Baptist Church did a awesome job. David Day is their leader. We had great food, fellowship and we both won door prizes. Getting my check wasn’t too bad either. Bad news from Chad. He was 8 pounds overweight, so he has to lose those pounds and then tries again December 30th. That will be up to him. I only pray that God will show him what his purpose and destiny is. Tonight we will go to the family Christmas party and the ole rock house in Waco, NC……

This Sunday will be our last one at our home group. TC and I will be asking for blessings to begin another home group. We will look attract those in our similar situation, without kids. I love kids and I love the Pruett’s kids, but Tc and I need this new adventure. I pray that God will lead us to reach others.

But....God is Good

Chad went Thursday to the MEPS Station in charlotte. He was supposed to be back home that afternoon but there were some problems. Chad said upon taking his urine test, “they were people all around you”. He couldn’t go so he had to spend another night and take it again this morning. If all goes well this morning he may be swearing in this afternoon. TC met me in Gastonia last night when I got off work at 6:00 PM and we drove over to Charlotte to the Holiday Inn Downtown or Center city as they like to call it to take Chad some more clothes. I can’t believe the Army pays for such a nice place. Anyway, it’s of to train 5 more people in the Smith System Defensive driving class. Tonight is our Fire Department Christmas Banquet. I’m looking forward to it as it will be my first with Cherryville. We get our annual checks tonight too. It will be fun!

Upon reading yesterday’s thoughts, I need to remind myself that Life is Hard but God is Good!!!!

Life Is Hard

Life is hard to think about sometimes; Life is hard to do. Sometimes you feel helpless and perhaps hopeless. What you thought was real sometimes is fake and you are trying to just belong somewhere. That’s the road I’m on. I’ve had my raising and this feeling goes against everything I’ve ever heard and this especially goes against what I read in Scripture. I am sure that all have been depressed or just consumed by a thought or feeling. Look, I know the TRUTH; but I don’t feel the truth. I know it is still the truth!
I think about several things that Christ has told us; first, don’t worry about tomorrow. Second, love your neighbor as your self. In other words take more though for your neighbor than you do yourself. That is not happening. Third, don’t fear, but rather give this burden over to the Lord, but I just seem unable to do it. I don’t know how. I am working on it but I just can’t seem to figure it out. I don’t feel like myself anymore. Something is wrong and I can’t figure out what. But, I know it will be OK

Just Dreaming

How i would love to be driving this herd on my Wyoming Ranch

This Road I'm on....

It seems that I have been referring everything to a journey as of late. I think because I have been reading lots of John Eldredges stuff but I don’t know. Whatever the case I really do believe it could be one of several things. One also could be the fact that TC and I have always considered ourselves as Pioneers and not settlers. We feel that we got to this point for a reason and that the road will continue for a specific purpose. Perhaps it is all the miles I driven over the years. So many nights and days traveling down asphalt and concrete just trying to get one place from another place. I refereed earlier that I think I enjoy the chase even more than the capture. When I get somewhere I just want to leave and go somewhere else. I am trying to consider why we are on the road we are on now. Both TC and I seem to be battling a sort of depression. I am not sure how serious it is but I guess anything emotional like this is serious. I think TC is struggling way more than I so I know I need to be stronger. I have learned through experience and I guess my generation that I am “suppose to tow the line”. The line sure seems to be awful heavy. Someone help me understand “mid-life crisis”. I know it exist and I have done the research. Can it be? Whey would I be facing mid life crisis, because I am mid life. It’s hard and it’s fast. If I live just to be 80, then I am over half over. Please don’t read anything into this that is not there! “Greater is he that is in me”. That I know, but I am talking about being a human. I also must realize that more than being a human I am a creation. God created me, knows me and desires to walk with me in relationship. Awesome! I will continue to study this as it actually helps to understand the physic behind the emotions. When studying them I think, Wow, that’s exactly how I feel. On Wikipedia it is defined in the characters as follows, Characteristics

Certain characteristics displayed by individuals experiencing a mid-life crisis often include but are not limited to:

* search of an undefined dream or goal
* desire to achieve a feeling of youthfulness
* acquiring of unusual or expensive items such as clothing, muscle cars, jeweler, gadgets, etc.
* paying extra special attention to physical appearance
* need to spend more time alone or with certain peers

WOW- Talking about the hitting the nail on the head. I shall attempt to understand this more in relation to my relationship with Christ.

A Lovely Thought for A Lovely Day

Sitting on our Fireplace mantel is one of the pictures of the greates joy in my life. Only someone who has given their daughter away can measure what we felt that night. Its coming up on one year. In this photo we are dancing the Father-Bride dance and of course it is to "butterfly Kisses". We are kinda smiling in this pic but I also have one when we first stated dancing. It looks like someone had kicked me in the stomach as I am in pain.

Now consider what God felt when He gave His only Son for our sins. What a beautiful picture. John 3:16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believed in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

I think of how much went into Christies dress and even her getting ready. Way before that David loved her. Same with us. While we were still in our sins, God loved us In fact Rom 5:8 But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.

A Lovely thought for a lovely day!

Kid Update: Christie and Chad

Chad went Monday to sign up for the Army. All the decisions have been made and according to TC he seemed excited about it. I do feel it will give him a sense of purpose. The recruiter’s computers went down so he will finish up with that today (Tuesday) and then he goes to MEPS in charlotte on Thursday. There he will officially sign the papers and probably be sworn in. He will also receive a complete physical and all that stuff. We still hope and pray that God’s Will shall be accomplished in all of this. That is the main thing! I guess that is what is on our mind. Here’s a blessings: As some of you may know my daughter Christie was in an accident. Her car being totaled she was without a car. Turkey Creek Baptist Church where David her husband serves as Youth Pastor, decided to put some money toward another car. Someone in the church decided they would take care of the rest. So, today they are receiving a 98 model car at no cost. You can’t beat that!

Sunday Recap: Awesome

What a time at church last night. Scott’s brother came and led worship because Moe took their son to Camp Lejune. I’ll tell you something man, the Holy Spirit was felt by all. The Worship was awesome and Terry played a prayer by John Eldredge and God spoke different things to different people. It was simply awesome! God really used me that morning as I spoke at Hezibah. Using I Samuel 3:1-3 as my text. I spoke on the importance of Choices, Actions and Redemption.
Hannah's Prayer of Praise
Then Hannah prayed:

"My heart rejoices in the Lord!
Oh, how the Lord has blessed me!
Now I have an answer for my enemies,
as I delight in your deliverance.
2
No one is holy like the Lord!
There is no one besides you;
there is no Rock like our God.

3
"Stop acting so proud and haughty!
Don't speak with such arrogance!
The Lord is a God who knows your deeds;
and he will judge you for what you have done.

Expectation: The Chase,Capture and the Challenge

Expectation: Meaning the act or state of expecting. Another word could be anticipation. The idea of expecting something specific has cause a lot of heartache and disappointment in the past. But, at the same time can you imagine life without expectancy. If you never expected anything I think that would be sad as well. I began thinking about this yesterday and I wanted to write about it. Years ago I always expected my daughter Christie to a southern girl. She is a little countrified but she wants to be a traveled girl. She anticipates different dreams for herself than I ever did. Now let me say that is good, but I didn’t ever expect her o go too places like Ecuador, England and such. The difference is she is the one who was proposed to on the eifer tower in Paris France. Now that is meaningless to me but for her is was priceless. I realized as well that my son has not hit expectations and that is alright. I do not and will not accept some of the things that he has done. I reject laziness and no will to be a sin and will not be tolerated however, he is who he is. I need to let him know that at the same time he learns that I will not allow him to just bum around any longer. Expectation: I consider my self. I sure didn’t think I would be where I am today. Lots of surprises have appeared lately. We are 43 and I have had tons of jobs, but I liked them all and I am glad I have had all those experiences. I have been a truck driver/Owner-Operator/ Fireman/ Pastor/Youth Pastor/Chaplin/Farm worker/ Soldier-Combat Engineer. I expected to have all that out of my system but I do not. Id am ready for a new Challenge. In fact I have found out something about myself. It is the chase that I desire. I usually become bored with the catch. I like the adventure found in the chase. My wife said that she is glad that I am not that way with her. It is true that I have no desire for that, but in other things, I like the chase, the capture and the challenge. In the beginning I thought this was a terrible thing but I think God can use this desire I have, which by the way He gave me, to His Glory and for working in His Kingdom. May it be so. May I EXPECT to do many great things. And may I never expect things out of other that they do not have.

Pics from Thanksgiving 2006

TC and our other two children













Chad and David: Caught playing Madden













Christie at our computer checking email













Christie and Bethany















Mom and Dad














Some Pics of us sitting around talking in Mom's livingroom. The conservation and the food was very good.

Just trying to figure it out

It’s Saturday morning as I try and gather my thoughts. An update on my reading. I had just finished “The Journey of Desire” by Jon Eldredge and so I decided to pick up “Captivated” by John and Staci Eldredge. It is really for women but TC had really gotten a lot from the men's book so we will see if it is vice-versa. Wow the journey we are on right now is an incredible ride. Our son has made us think things that we have never thought before. By that I mean it seems so simple to figure out but it is never that simple. I know I was 18 at one time but come one. When I was 18 I was preparing to ask TC for her hand in marriage, I had a job paying my own way. It seems that Chad has no desire or ambitions. Perhaps that may change soon as he learns things about himself in Basic Training. I hope!
This week at Wellspring Moe is going to be gone. They have to take their son to Camp Lejune, NC I saw Matt at the recruiter’s office and I thought he look awesome in his Marine sweats. Donna, his Mom looked as thought she was just glowing in pride. I think that TC really needs to talk to Donna about how she feels about Chad. I think that would go well. I will probably try and work that out God willing! I think Scott is trying to get his brother to come and lead the music for the church. I hope because I really want to play the drums Sunday. Well that is all I am going to write about today. God is good and He Still EXISTS just as He did yesterday. Forever there forever faithful and forever thinking of me His Child!

Holiday

I drove from Waco to Brevard yesterday. The ride was pretty good as the weather was absolutely beautiful. Of course Christie has not found a car yet so we had to go and get them. Christie and David are going to spend the night with us as the entire family got together last night for Thanksgiving Supper. We had a great time and met another new girlfriend of Matt’s my nephew. This one might be a keeper. I’ll post some pics of the family when I get new batteries for the camera. Out Tradition is to go and eat breakfast this Friday morning and them come home and decorate for Christmas. I guess we will have take Christie back to Brevard sometime this afternoon. I am so gals it worked out for them to come. I am thankful that that my family is together. I am also thankful that I am off this whole weekend. Thursday started kina funky. I think I was just overcome by all the things going on the past few weeks. I just felt blah! I am a very emotional person so when they hit bottom so do I.
Chad has decided to go and sign up for the army this coming Monday. He seems to be actually excited about it so we will see. He had decided on the MOS 88M which is Motor Transport Operator or Truck driver for short. I think part of the decision for that choice is his laziness and not wanting to walk but whatever. We all have our reasons for doing something. I just hope everything goes well when he goes to MEPS and all of that. Let’s go and enjoy the remainder of the Holiday. Peace out!

Thankful for Thanksgiving

I am glad ole Abe set aside this day for the purpose of giving thanks, although I am sure that you are much like me as you give thanks each and every day. However, I will make sure I give thanks for the national things at this time. I am thankful for FREEDOM. Freedom is bigger than America. Freedom comes as a gift from God but it is not be taken lightly. Today I think I will ponder on that thought and for the men and women who serve to protect that freedom!

A Chad Update

Chad did pretty well on the ASVAB. As expected he did way better on the mechcanical part and his scores gave him many options. We sat in the recruiters office for over an hour just looking at the different jobs. It's going to be his decision but I am trying to help him as much as I can. He really seemed interested in a 88M- Transport Operator or truckdriver. I guess we will see. I went ahead and took the tape test just to see how much body fat I had. Well it was about 28% That would have to come down to about 26% for me. I have about one year to decide and then I would forever be too old. I found a Chaplain's Assistant down at Fort Jackson SC so that is interesting. Chad was over weight but he was under his body fat percentage. So, I guess he is good to go! I will pray for his decision.

Chad Journey

Monday Night we went and talked to the recruiter. Chad took a practice ASVAB test and asked some questions. He goes back today at 3:00 PM and they will take him to Charlotte for the actual ASVAB test and then bring him back to Shelby. At that point they will talk to him about certain jobs he is qualified for. When I was in the recruiting office I could feel that sense of pride. I think Chad felt it too he just does not know what it is yet. I really enjoyed talking to some of the guys in there about the old army. Last year with a great sense of patriotism, I even tried to re-enlist. Didn't work out but there is still even a chance at that. I would love to be a chaplain's Assistant. God would surely have to open that door and keep it open because TC would slam that one shut for sure. Who knows? For those who do please pray for Chad today.

From a Daddy's Heart

From the heart this weekend has been really weird. I would hesitate just a little to explain everything but we’ve had a few problems from our 18 years old son. In all honesty we can not figure out why things have worked they way they have. Someone once said that “Y” or Why is a crooked letter that no one has ever got straight. I reckon! There have been jobs for Chad that have just not panned out. I mean they said sure we will hire you. Call me next week. Nothing. Wal-Mart said sure, here now go take this drug test. Nothing! So, Chad graduated from the U.S Job Corp in Brevard NC last September with his GED so we really figured things were turning around but, they have not. We fear that boredom and lack of gumption will create for Chad a negative atmosphere. In fact it already has. So, we decided that Chad’s best course of action is to begin the process of joining the Army. His Mom was very upset at this suggestion but, after much conversation she came to see what I meant. So, this week will be for Chad to investigate and find some answers to his question. Chad needs prayer for he is at a critical crossroads in life. This is difficult for a Dad to bear but I know this change in Chad's life is neccesary.

Just For Fun

This is the only known picture of Billy the Kid.














Just for fun I have been looking at the evidence of the story that Brush Bill Roberts was actually billy The Kid. This has proven to be untrue time and time again. It does make a great story though. They have ven given Brushy Bill a new headstone to reflect his story. He is buried in Hamlminton Texas just 20 miles from his home town.













Here is part of a newspaper article I found. Notice the middle picture. This is Anastacio Trujillo, holding the .44 rifle giving to his Father by Billy The Lid, alia, William H Bonney. According to the pic and report, there are 22 marks on the barrell.

No Worries!

On Friday TC and I spent the day looking at cars. We found several online and found a few just looking around. I am glad that I had Friday off and even Saturday off. It came at a good time. I really didn’t want to buy a car right now but timing has made it a necessity. As in the past we will wait for the one God has picked out for us.

As I finished up the book “The Journey of Desire”, I will bring out one final thought. John talked about hanging a sign above his bed to remind him in the mornings that “God Exists”. The point: Sometimes God works these miracles in our lives and then we forget about them. If we could just remember what God has done in the past, we would have an idea of what He will do in the future. How can He not meet all of our needs? He Will! He Has Promised and he will. No worries!

Three New Movies Added to my Collection

Of course this one has Gene Hackman and Robert Duvall. That's a no brainer. Plus, I love a great tragic ending.
Kevin Costner and Clint Eastwood. A movie about a crominal, a young boy and a TExas Ranger

This one was originally a mini-series on TV. This most certain ranks in the top 3 Civil War movies.

A Perfect World

Yesterday it seems my vehicle woes began to subside. After finding out that my wife's car had just lost a wire of the back of the alternator instead of the alternator being bad. This saved me over 200 bucks. That’s great! As Tony the Tiger would say. So, I paid out less but I will make less too. Eric, my Saturday boss, called to tell me he does not need me this weekend. Then, Billy, my Friday boss, called to say the classes were canceled on Friday. So, that means I will have a three day weekend. Cool!

Last night we watched “A Perfect World” with Kevin Costner and Clint Eastwood. We had watched a long time ago and I had forgotten about it. It really does open so many thoughts concerning different views on things. Such as; criminals and how they got that way. Young boys with a father. It’s a good movie and worth watching; however it does use the “F” word a few times and the GD word a few times too. Famous two quotes of the movie. Kevin describes, “Your front windshield in the future and the rear view is the past. Speed up or slow down, the choice is yours. He stops and says, “Now is the present. Enjoy it while it last”. Also, the criminologist says, “In a perfect world things like this would not happen”. I agree! Except one thing. That which is perfect has not come. 1Cr 13:10 But when that which is perfect is come, then that which is in part shall be done away. I am reminded often about this passage because I know the day is coming when the “Perfect One’ Jesus Christi will come again and when He does all will be perfect again as it was in Eden. Everything will be beautiful. It will be again a Perfect World!

The Process of Intervention

I've almost become uncomfortable in the mystery, but I have handled that. I really hope and pray that i am not just putting on a front. God knows my heart and I want to deal with thing as they come. I rested well even though transportationly, I am in a mess. BUT, God is bigger than anything sitution. So blessings still abound! Intervention is procesing!

This past Sunday was just too cool. I was so sick Sunday morning but God gave ame a special unction. I know because I felt it. Hezibah was good and then i went on the Northside and it was awesome. I could feel the Holy Spirit place a calm on the people and we were just able to link.

TC went last Sturday to re-take her PRAXIS test. I think that went well.

Needing Intervention

Ok, I have been put to the test and man “it ain’t been easy”. Know what I mean! For some reason I think I want to recap so I can kind of see, so here we go. Weekend before last my daughter wrecked and totaled her car. This car was still in our name, still our insurance (although they did pay for the insurance and stuff). Nevertheless, it is still in our name therefore; we are involved. It’s something we will have to work out with the wrecker company. Who knows how that gonna work out, plus I have to think about insurance rising. Then TC’s car quit starting. So, we put a starter on it. About 200 bucks. Then on Monday night it quit running on her way home from school. This is the third time it has left her stranded in a week. She will need a battery or alternator. Chad’s truck lost the clutch. About 650 bucks. Then a Rod began to knock so the mechanic advised putting 50 weight racing oil. So we did, and he said that it could last a day, a month or maybe years, who knows? My blazer has gone through two coils and two oxygen sensor valve which are highly unusual. Something is making it happen. So, I’m really not complaining, but just recapping. We are still blessed because we still have our health and God will se us through this trying time. God must work a miracle for Christie because they do not have acar to get to work. Good folks are letting them borrow cars a few days at a time, but that won’t last long. As for now she has until Wednesday. God I ask for you intervention.

Man, this is so cool

Here is a picture of my son Chad helping watch the kids. There are also some other youth in there as well. This is a play room located inside the church. What a great facility thay have. To God be the glory!










This is a little better shot of the whole band. You can barely see me in the dark left corner. We are worshipping in the blue room at Christ Covenant Church in Shelby, NC. They do not use their building on Sunday nights so they let us use the blue room. What a blessings.








This is Scott Hood playing the Trumpet and the Keyboard. Scott just recently returned from Iraq and is also a police officer for the city of Kings Mountain. In front of him is Moe our fearless leader









This is me playing the drums at Wellspring Community Church. Our Praise Band is getting bigger and better. That's little Kevin Caldwell to the right thumping the bass.

Practice makes point

Yesterday when faced with a major decision, the phrase I found the same day really came home to roost. Here it is; I had one car that would crank and run, mine-although it skips after it gets warm). I have one that I just spent over 600 dollars and drove it 15 minutes and now it makes a horrible noise. I have another car that will crank sometimes-It has left TC stranded three times. So, I decided not to go to work and take TC to her test. With this in mind I felt as though I had handled the situation perfectly. I pray so badly that I can continue to do the same in each and every situation. Why do things happen? I don’t know, but I am comfortable in the mystery!

More of The Journey

The more comfortable we are with the mystery of our Journey, the more rest we will receive along the way." This is directly from John Aldredge's book, The Journey of Desire" What a saying. Think about it; Life is a mystery; the Gospel is a mystery so therefore why would we not think that even our life journey would not be a mystery as well. When one comes to that realization, I think the journey itself becomes more intriguing. My Journey like my skin fits me perfectly; therefore I am comfortable in it. Because I am comfortable in it, I will receive the rest that I so need!

A Quick Pause

It's 3:30 in the morning and I am just waking to another day. Thank you God for a good night rest. I wish I could sleep later but hey, it is what it is. Chad's truck will be over 600.00 for repairs (WOW) and I hope to do some repairs on the other cars ASAP. There is not time this weekend. I must work teaching the SMITH-SYSTEM today at our Corporate Headquarters in Lowell NC. On Saturday TC has to go and re-take her writing test in Charlotte for her PRAXIS I Test. Also, I will be working in Charlotte all day Saturday. I will be at the Charlotte Diesel Driving School. This will be my first day at the charlotte school. I am being trained right now to begin teaching a class on the weekends beginning in December. Sunday, I will be speaking at Hezibah at 9:30 and then again at Northside at 11:00 AM. It’s going to be a tight schedule, but God will give and protect, that I am sure of. Wellspring will met at Christ Covenant at 5:30 on Sunday afternoon. What a weekend!

Overwhlemed-Maybe or maybe not

Wow! This first week of this new schedule is quite difficult. Lots of things have gone wrong and I have no time to fix them. TC's car is not running right and neither is my blazer. Yesterday Chad's truck broke and I think it will need a new clutch. I must work this Friday and Saturday and of course this falls on my Hezibah week and then I speaking at Northside as well. God I need you to give me strength to accomplish all these things.

TC and i have been praying about starting a 3rd group for wellspring for while now. We feel the need to begin something for single adults or couples with no kids. For this to happen we need several things to happen. First, agreement from our pastor, CHECK 2. Agreement from our homegroup to branch out- COMING SOON Thirdly, Confirmation that now is the time- CHECK

So, we must have an agreement with our existing group. I have been the leader but I have also been co-leading this one with Cecil. It is tyime for him to lad this group with someone else. I feel strongly that there are people needing this that we must reach. We need prayer support on this one for sure!

Fire Training

Last night we used our extradiction tools to destroy somecars. Actually CBT Wrecker service gave us some cars and we were training on them. Some guys had never even hand their hands on them much less use them. It had been a while, so I jumped in and tore the front of a Ford Tarsus and the roght side door. We must be ready and prepared when we are called upon.

A few more Pics

A pic of TC and my Mom in our living room.














You can see a little of christie, but this is my Dad and David













This is one of my best friends. This is Benji.















This is our back yard. At least we have some bueatiful trees to look at.

This past Saturday I went with TC to visit her graduating college home, Lees Mcrae College. It is a Presbyterian college and it fit well with her plans. We sat in a couple of classes. ONe wa about how certain light can prevent people from reading, understanding and such. The other class was a young woman from the Hmong community. She described how she was born in a refugee camp and how different our curltures are. This was really interesting. Next most people did some mountain dancing, although I decided not to participate. The guy leading this event did not sit very well with me, so I bowed out. Anyway, we had a great day.

Sunday our House Church was very good. We met for some fellowwship time and then we started. After the praise and sharing we has lunch. TC fixed three large pots of homemade soup. Others brought pumpkin bread and desserts. TC fixed some cornbread as well. It was great!

TC and I talked for a while yesterday on something that just came up. I have been feeling that another group should be started and yesterday we discussed that perhaps now is the time for that. I want to discuss this with Terry and others before going any further. This is a major prayer concern.

Also Sunday we head the news that our daughter and son in law were involved in a car incident down at Myrtle Beach. I think the car is totaled but the main thing is everyone is perfectly fine. Thank you God!

A Contrast of Desire, What?

This week at our Home Group I am leading us in the topic of desire. I have been intrigued by this topic since I have been reading “The Journey of Desire” by John Eldredge. This book is awesome but too many times when I really get to thinking about my hearts true desire I almost get depressed. It is a feeling I think that is necessary in order for oneself to really feel what they must, that they might find the encouragement to actually do something about it. Too many people settle for less than what God wants for them. A True statement for sure is that your greatest desires will be placed there by God Himself. I have found that I almost always desire less for my self than God would for me. For example, I have always wanted to be able to be free and travel where I need to go. Now sit back for a moment and compare that desire to the need of being faithful. They both tear at my soul. I want to be a free spirit going and coming at the need arises. That is a desire that I have I simply cannot shake. It never goes away. I want to be on mission, on journey and help people where they are with what I have. I want to see God move in a powerful way. So, here is where my heart is discouraged. I must be faithful to my family, to my job, to paying the bills, right! Sure I do, but my prayer is for God to show me how HE is going to send me to my DESIRE and still be faithful to what He has already given me. I Declare that it is true! But, I don’t know. Get it!

The Journey- Continued

When I think back on my life and what has come my way, there are several things that top the list:

1. Meeting and marrying TC
2. Having my Children: Christie and Chad

Of course these all fall behind meeting my Lord Jesus. When I think of certain circumstances in life I consider the jobs I have had. Two of the least paid were my favorite. Working at Cedar Lake Farms and taken care of all the bulls. Wayburn Mitchell was my boss and he was great to work for. Also being a fulltime fireman at Shelby Fire Department was awesome but would'nt pay the bills at the time. I have always wished I did'nt leave the Fire Department but that is now covered by Cherryville FD and being a volunteer. The point is this, money is not the answer. God dhas put me in some awesome places but I turned away from some and my timing was off on others.

Today, I am starting my second job of teaching at Trans-Tech Truck Driving School. I will either be in Conover or charlotte. Starting next week I will agin teach the SMith System DDC at my full-time job PSNC and be working at TT on Saturdays. This will be my schedule for until the end of the year. Take it when it comes! You never know when a rainy day will come.

The Journey of Desire

This is the title of the latest book I am reading. It is written by John Eldridge of Ransomed Heart.
This was a difficult book to read because of the truth I found inside. When I would finish a chapter or sitting I would almost be discouraged. I knew in my heart that my journey of desire was off track somehow. I could no longer hear myself over the crowd. I really did not know who I was. The thing is; I really have not found all the answers yet. I am getting there. That is why it is called a journey. To be honest I take too many detours along the way. I am going to focus on this the next few days. I look forward to the JOURNEY. www.lifesong.info

Wait and See

Chad had an interview at Walmart on Monday and took his drug test. He is hoping to hear back some time this week. (We hope so too) Please pray for such to be so if it is God's Will. TC (my wife) needs prayer for her sleep habits. She has such a hard time falling a sleep. She has a few more things to try before asking the doc about it.

Chad also has a placement test to take before beginning college in January. He has alot to do and I pray he will be responsible in doing all he needs to do. I will start my new second job this coming Friday. TC has to spend the day at Lees Mcrae College this Saturday so, I am going too and we hope to get hang for the night and enjoy a little time off. We will see.

I am feeling a little lonley in my walk right now. Last week Wellspring did'nt have church which I think was not good. It would have been better to have it, but that is not my call. I think November the 12th is the next time we will have the Party and I don't think I will make that one. I am gonna try but I will speak that morning at 9:30 at Hezibah and then at 11:00 at Northside. I will speak again at Northside at 6:00. Don't see how I can make Wellspring that night but I hate so bad. I have to be hones, I just love how I feel after playing the drums. Moe is easy to play with and it is an exciting thing. Oh well, things are for a purpose and we will just have to wait and see how that works out.

Psalms 48:14

For this God [is] our God for ever and ever: he will be our guide [even] unto death.

Reflection

Indeed, all the earth knows of His righteousness and is filled with His amazing glory! All His splendor and might exceeds all imagination. Such is our God. And He will guide us into His everlasting glory! (Blue Letter Bible)

Extra Employment

This past Friday I had an interview with a Truck Driver School. Trans-Teck located in Conover, NC operates the Hickory reginal and the Charlotte Diesel Truck Driving Schools. It is owned by one family and all of them work at both locations. I found the job through a job search for training or teaching. After all the legal things work out and background search and all I should start this coming Friday. I have to take a drug test and watch for a day. I am only planning on working on Fridays but that could change week by week. Last year i worked part time for MDI and delivered to grocery stores in a 5 state area. that was almost too hard. Lots of early morning and late nights. This job should be tons better. There is one thing for sure. I have no problem speaking in public. Whether it is in a class room or a podium, I feel comfortable speaking on subjects I am interested in. I enjoy profoundly teaching about safe driving and trucks. We will see how it goes.

Chad's Birthday

I sit here this morning thinking back 18 years. We were in the Army and preparing for our second child. Chad was born at the House of the Good Samartian, Watertown New York. I just like to say Fort Drum, NY. Christie and David came down, Chad's cousin Matthew and of course Mom and Dad. Happy Birthday Chad!

Nonor those who have fallen

I am preparing this morning for an all day class at the Fire Department. Before I left I just wanted to pause and pray for the families of those who have fell in california from the forest fire that was set. God bless them and their familes: It is sad to know they were lost for no reason.

Today at 5:30 we are going to have our son Chad's Birthday get together. Just family and then I am sure he is off with his friends. Chad will be 18 on Sunday. That's hard to believe!

God: One who Loves and Forgives

I re-read yesterday's devotion. I say WOW again. The reflection said to go in BOLDNESS. That is something that I do not do. I do not know why but I am sure it must be addressed. Too many times we as humans rely upon our own strength. All my life I have been interested and consumed by cowboy movies. Always pull yourself with your boot straps and never depend on anyone else. In other words, "cowboy up". Now, there is something to say about having resolve but a reliance upon oneself is unhealthy. Trust me, because everytime I do I always screw it up some how. How can God continue to forgive us and keep loving us? There within lies His special nature. He is a God of love and forgiveness and desires that to be spread amoung the people of this world. Sure God corrects, directs , assigns and a thousand other things. But, the message in the Gospel is that He cares for his people and desires them to be in a personal relationship with Him.
I am looking forward to speaking at Hezibah this coming week. I have a message that I am working so I hope it will be completed on time. We decided not to purchase the camper so we will wait until another time. Be Blessed

TC and i found a camper that we liked and we stopped and looked at it. I like it actually because it is smaller. I think the blzer could pull it a little better. I offered my other camper to a buddy and we are waiting to hear back from them. No biggy in the great scheme of things, but it would be nice. I am looking into another part time job as a Truck Driver Instructor. The pay is acceptable but it would tie up both Friday and Saturday. I think the excitment of doing something different would be enough to carry me for some time. I also like the idea of the extra money so we could save more. Anyway it is an important decision that I need prayer for.

Psalms 46:1-2

[[To the chief Musician for the sons of Korah, A Song upon Alamoth.]] God [is] our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Therefore will not we fear, though the earth be removed, and though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea;

Reflection

So strong is our victorious Lord that ever more can we, His people, trust in His promise to protect us. Fear not, O believer, for even now is the kingdom of God visible by your faith! Take up your heavenly reign! Rejoice in your seat at the Father's throne! God will be your sturdy defense and never will the enemy's darts pierce your hide, so go forth proclaiming the Lord's victory in boldness.

WOW

What A Joy

This week as been much needed. A little more laid back compared to the last few weeks. Monday night was pretty hard with the live burn. My bones were sore all day. Last night I just came home and done nothing. TC had supper prepared when I arrived home. Chad and I played a quick game of Madden Football and I sat back and watched " The Unit". I enjoyed it even though it was a re-run.

My Morning Time comes from Blue Letter Bible . com
The LORD [is] the portion of mine inheritance and of my cup: thou maintainest my lot.
Psalms 16:5

Reflection

With the Lord being our portion and our cup, He becomes our sufficiency in both food and drink. The reference of the "lot" may either speak of the land that was granted or even how God is in control of everything—even our destiny. We also have the promise of a heavenly lot which Jesus talks about in John 14:2.

"Don't be troubled. You trust God, now trust in me. 2 There are many rooms in my Father's home, and I am going to prepare a place for you. If this were not so, I would tell you plainly. 3 When everything is ready, I will come and get you, so that you will always be with me where I am. 4 And you know where I am going and how to get there."

What a joy to realize this first thing in the morning! Be Blessed!

Awesome

This past Sunday we met for the first time at Christ Covenant Church. They do not use their building on Sunday nights so it is perfect. When you first walk into the entrance you go right in to the Foundry, their coffee house. That is cool. We are allowed to use the Blue Room, which is right across the hall. There is also a playground inside next to that. You could not ask for a better place to meet. Terry, our pastor, met with the Elders and we wer approved for as long as we need. I do hope and pray that the Holy Spirit will prevent any problems of jealousy or ill-spirited thoughts.

Tonight CFD will burn a house. Actually not much training will come from this. It is a small house on White street that we put out last July 4th, but some younger guys will get some much needed hose time.

Relaxed and Prepared

On Friday Tc and I decided to take the afternoon off and go riding. We went up and around the South Mountain area. It's funny we stopped and talked to Faith Tinnin on the side of the road. Anyway we stopped by South Mountain State Park and sat on the rocks by the stream at our favorite spot. It was so relaxing. TC was thinking about the bueaty of it all while I almost started dozing. It is so relaxing by that stream. Anyway, I have training from 8-5 today at Gaston College.

Time Will Tell!

WOW- What a week again. Are'nt we all so busy. This week in training was pretty tough. Monday was Fire Behaviour II and Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday was Intro to Pumps. I must be honest and say that I skipped Tuesday. I was so tired. It had rained all day and I felt like crap so I just hung out at the house and watched my favorite show " The UNIT". I love that show so far! Anyway, Wednesday was TC's last day at Washington and we went out that night for Mexican food. It's Friday morning and I'm a little tired as I responded last night to a fire alarm at Somerset Court. False Alarm but i could'nt go back to sleep. All of us was awake until the wee hours.
Last week at House Church was pretty good. About half of us was missing but Jason led us in music and and then we had a brief Bible Study and went up to the Gazebo and prayed for the City and the youth and ended at the Pepporini Express. This week we are going to meet as a larger group at Christ Covenant Church. It is located between Shelby and Boiling Springs on Hwy 150. This weekend Tc has several projects for school Monday so not sure if we will get to go look at the leaves or not. Time will tell!

A Day at Carowinds

Here some pics of our day at Carowinds. Getting ready for the Drop Zone!








This past weekend Christie and David came down on Friday night and spent the night. We all got up Saturday morning and went to Carowinds. We really had a great time. We got home around 8:00 that night and they decided to spend another nght adn return home to Brevard early Sunday Morning. It was so nice to spend the day and two nights with my whole family. Thanks God for this blessing!

Looking Ahead:

• This Sunday is Home Group Week. We are meeting at 10:00 Am at the Pruetts and the after a while we are walking up to the Uptown Gazebo. After praying for the city and other things that the Holy Spirit leads us to we are gong to stop at the Pizza Express for the buffet and fellowship. Next week we meet at Christ Covenant for the Party!
• This coming Wednesday will be TC's last day at Washington as an assistant Teacher. Her desire to become a teacher pushes us to make this decision. There is only so much a person can do and so we made this decision based on God's answer.
• This Week I have a Fire class every night. Monday it is Fire Behaviour II at CFD and Tuesday- Wednesday is the last week of Introuction to pumps/Driver-Operator

Happy birtday my TC Darling! She said she is Forty also, but based on the fact that I will be 43 in December, that makes her 43 this Wednesday. It really is hard to believe that we are nearing our mid forties. Time does fly.